Coming from the US to Germany shook my world.
In America, I was: an auxiliary pioneer, a Bible teacher, a part of the North Concord Congregation, a daughter, an employee.
In Germany, I am a niece, a granddaughter, a daughter, one of Jehovah’s Witnesses. That’s it.
My titles are gone. The very things I lived behind and up to were with one plane ride finito.
I didn’t even realize what was occurring but I think I had an identity crisis.
WHO AM I? AM I GOOD? SHOULD I FEEL GUILT? You have to understand, I went from doing service regularly to not at all. My circumstances didn’t allow it. So I felt mixed emotions on this new situation, naturally.
I realize now, that in America I had allowed my titles to define me. Rather than my conduct and more importantly, my heart condition…
I’m still not able to do as much service as I am used to, but its better than the first three months.
So for the next three weeks, I am taking a #socialmediacleanse. All this free time should be used wisely, I say.
To try to better myself. Improve my Farsi. But also to learn how to be more present with those around me. How to focus less on myself and more on others.
To learn how to be a good person, and let that be my new & forever title.